“I know it’s not for me to understand, but I can’t help but want to know.” This is, hands down, the best sentence I’ve read in awhile! Indeed, my friend’s casual email blurb captures the Christian life: the secret things belong to the Lord—but we “can’t help but want to know.”
Right now (as usual), I have a few irons in the fire. In these, there are a number of things that—as my friend put it—are “not for me to understand”: my job eight months in, recent acceptance of a church ministry, and my book is being printed this week. And let’s top it off with favorites, Thanksgiving and Christmas preparations—and the gray areas are like a thickening fog.
Amidst the question marks, I can’t predict the future. As much as I’d like to, I can’t even say how this afternoon will play out! So in God’s hands, I do well to “get in, sit down, hold on, and shut up.”
But still: “I can’t help but want to know.”
The balance comes by putting our best foot forward—work, serve, and survive—meanwhile acknowledging God. Frank Laubach encouraged thinking of the Lord for one second in every minute! We are meant to let the sovereign unknowns simply lie with the ever-capable Almighty. Therein is our peace: Dallas Willard described the “aim and substance of spiritual life” as “the effective and full enjoyment of active love of God and humankind in all the daily rounds of normal existence where we are placed.”
I guess I can learn from the apostles, early church leaders, or a modern American friend on email: I can persevere even not being apprized of the secret things—whether or not “I can’t help but want to know.”